Sunday, September 3, 2017

My Annabelle

You have been my core, with me at every turn.
What I know of selfless love, it's through you I learned.
I always said it was you and me against the world.
But now, the life we built together, has completely unfurled.
When our eyes first met, I knew that you were mine.
They brought you out, you looked around, saw me and made a beeline.
Tenacious, friendly and loving, our personalities matched.
We worked our way into each other's hearts, then we were latched.
My antenna eared bear cub, it almost seemed you tried to talk.
Those expressive eyes, wagging tail, funny way you'd sulk.
You were everything I never knew I'd need in life.
Up when I was up, sad when I was down, carrying me through anguish and strife.
Coming home to that black, fuzzy, happily wagging tail.
Lifted my spirits and always made me smile, without fail.
I held your face and kissed you, my pretty little girl.
Then onto the couch you'd go, laying in your Anna-ball curl.
Always a little lover, you weren't one to fight.
In confrontation, the other dog took the first and last bite.
Everybody's friend, you gave more than received.
Dispelled the, "evil Pitbull," myth that's so misperceived.
You touched so many lives with your love and charm.
Welcoming of all, even if someone meant you harm.
I thanked God often that he was letting me borrow you.
Then came the day He gave you wings, and back to heaven you flew.
My only hope is that my show of unconditional love made you cheery.
We will reunite in heaven where you're already waiting for me.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Life As A Means To An End

How do you write when your worth is gone
Blink, breathe, swallow, it's wrong
Inconsequential emptiness has become you
Hapless nightmares are all that's true
When you don't see the good, that makes you bad
Someone has it worse. Don't you dare feel sad!
You are to be what others expect
Failure to do so is your neglect
Make no mistake; you have no worth
You started dying immediately upon birth


I don't think you'll ever see what I do
When I look at and think of you
You're the gold standard, the one to compare
All other guys to, and it's really unfair
You're on a pedestal, royalty in my mind
You stand alone, truly one of a kind
Never sell yourself short: you are a king
Deserving of the very best of everything
I truly admire the person that you are
Things you say, do, and have accomplished thus far
I needed a friend, and somehow you were found
Loyal to a fault, I'd like to keep you around

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Two Choices

Nothing solid, the ground wet and slippery
Icicles form, melting into puddles of misery

Sunlight shines, forcing misery to spread
Feeling sadness, still I forge on ahead

Through motion, my balance is regained
Basic survival, simply how life is sustained

Misery puddles, I step in and lament
How quickly, the past becomes the present

The sun, guiding away from this sadness
Beams on, a shining happiness atlas

Choices; avoid the puddles and follow
Or stay, sink into despondency and wallow?

Monday, July 13, 2015

Faded but not jaded

I feel the walls closing in on each side
Nowhere seems safe, nowhere to hide

It seems I fell so far, so fast
On top of the world, I thought, at last!

My hard work was finally paying me back
Now my life has fallen off track

It has to work out; it's just the ebb and flow
I hate to feel the happiness go

It has to come back, I won't let it leave
This is only temporary; that much I believe!

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

What went wrong?

There aren't any words to describe the pain
Of having something real, then knowing you'll never have it again

The very hand that fed me, that I lived and died for
Ripped the spoon away and pushed me through the door

I knew the fall would be hard, but I thought it would end
Here I am, still falling, with wounds that will never mend

How can I heal when I'm still spiraling down?
My fake smiles in public, behind closed doors fade to a frown

I have lost all control of where this is heading
I thought I could turn it around, but I'm just treading

Frozen in place at one point in time
When things were so good, almost sublime


Here I am again, in a place I thought I'd left behind me
Running and running toward a destination I cannot see
For quite some time, I was doing so well
I'm on the ground again and I don't know where I fell
I stand up and move away, running from the shove
I'm unable to discern; is it from below, beside or above?
Feeling as though the walls are closing in on every side
Those parts of me that have healed have run off to hide
I need those parts to be whole and know that something is real
Refusing to accept that reality is this fear I feel
I have hope that there's more for me, much better than this
I can feel life passing me by; each moment is hit or miss
This is not something that I can experience again
A pain so deep, failure induced, it wipes away my grin
My smile is my trademark, always there, to brighten up the day
This is beyond the realm of anything I can smile away